I used to write another blog. It was called Kyla's Not Normal. I was initially quite excited about it. I wanted to share the writing experience with everyone, just as I wanted to share my story.
But mostly I wanted to create an author's presence on the web.
I really want to make it as an author. I have dreamed of sharing my stories with the world since I was 5 years old. Because there were things I saw and felt that other people simply didn't. I went to other worlds, and I dragged my friends there with me. They weren't upset about it for long. Very shortly, they were having as good a time as I was!
I've wanted to share those worlds and characters on a much larger scale ever since. And a blog was just another tool I used to reach that goal.
It isn't a terrible reason. But the blog was a means to an end, not an end in and of itself. Plus, when I didn't feel it was working, or that my work was going fast enough, it made it far too easy to drop the blog in favor of things like boys and partying.
This time I want it to be different. I don't want to set myself up to fail again. Each post on this blog is an accomplishment in and of itself without anyone commenting, and without my presence as an author being enlarged. Each comment is an opportunity for growth and expression. Each time it's hard to log on and update my blog? That's a challenge and an opportunity to show how much I've grown since the last one.
I blog because I believe it's good for me. I blog because I enjoy it.
And I still hope to make it as an author. But that's not what it's all about anymore. It's about becoming a better person. Becoming great.
- Did not exercise or stretch today, but meditated and worked on my writing.
- Wrote in journal, stayed on budget, and wrote a poem today.
- Posted on my blog.
- Didn't clean at all.