My mother was telling me today of how she has tried and failed to do what I'm doing now when she was my age. And she isn't the only one. My coworkers have been telling me how they've tried to reach their own goals as I am but have found that "something" always gets in the way and stops them.
I've decided that "something" is really only one thing: you.
You are your own worst enemy. You are the only thing standing between you and your dreams. You are the only obstacle in your path to greatness.
Because of things like fear and doubt, you give up when things get difficult, believing those ugly, little thoughts in the back of your mind. "You're not good enough." "You can't do this; you're fooling yourself." "You're going to look like an idiot." "You deserve the mediocre life you live."
I know. Because I am having those same thoughts.
I'm so afraid I'm going to fail. That I'm going to be stuck in this life I don't want to stay in. Sure, it's a good place to be for my temporary goals, but long-term? No way!
I'm afraid I can't get out. I'm afraid I'm not good enough. I'm afraid I'm going to look like an idiot. I'm afraid I'm going to be like my mom and my coworkers, advising some future dreamer that "something" is going to come between them and greatness.
If I let it, these doubts and fears will hold me back. They'll stop me from reaching my goals. From flying with my dreams.
I refuse to let it.
I will do this. I am good enough. I deserve to live my dreams. And I'm not an idiot.
And do you know why? Because when all is said and done, I'm more afraid of what I'll become if I don't do this than what might happen if I do. Success might not be certain in this life change of mine, but failure is sure if I don't even try to make it.
Fear can poison you or it can drive you to even greater heights. Regardless, you will be afraid. What you do with that fear all depends on you.
- Exercised, stretched, and meditated twice today. Only worked on writing tonight, however.
- Wrote in my journal, stayed on budget, and wrote a poem today.
- Posted on my blog today.
- Picked up in my room, made my bed, vacuumed living room, den, bedroom, hallway, and bathroom, cleaned bathroom sink, toilet, and mirror, and worked on laundry.